Embracing Me (Part II)

...leaving a job that made me feel dull and lifeless made me realize how important it is for me to find my passion. I have reflected a lot over the past week as I have been nearly unemployed for the first time in my life, fortunately I have a nice backup job that I will be returning to shortly. Anyway, one thing that I have realized is that I need to learn to love myself. This sounds so silly to write, but I think it is so true and key to living a fulfilling life. I wrote this the other day when I was realizing that I needed to embrace who I am...Knowing myself, loving myself, and connecting with myself is the key to loving life. How can I ever feel loved, feel connected, feel comfortable, feel worthy, feel at peace, or feel happy if I do not know and love myself. I must accept, appreciate, and celebrate who I am while striving to be the best I can be. I am what I have experienced, more importantly what I have learned from those experiences, and most importantly the way in which I aim to embrace future experiences. I am what I think, more importantly what I believe, and most importantly what I do. I am my body, I am my mind, and I am me when I connect my body and mind.

I feel like I have been living in clouds for the past few years...Unsure about myself, what I want, who I am, afraid to be what and who I am. The clouds are parting, and I am beginning to shine that which is me!

Living and Learning (Part I)

So much has happened since my last post, I really do not know where to start. I feel like I could write a lengthy book on my experiences and revelations that have occurred in the past month. I will try to get it all out as succinct as possible. The biggest thing that happened, event wise, was that this new job I was so excited about turned out not to be so great, in fact, I have chosen to move on already. I really liked the company, and it was my intent to try to create a position where I could educate consumers on healthy eating choices. However, I felt very repressed at the company and my job was not at all what I wanted to be doing...working in a kitchen, doing mundane work, surrounded by foods I refuse to consume, and under management that was not very supportive. I am not sure if my ultimate goal of creating a position where I could educate the public would have come about, but I know it would have taken a long time, and I did not feel like my voice was being heard. I chose to leave, rather abruptly, I feel slightly bad about giving only one week notice, but it seemed okay considering the circumstances. So what did I learn from this experience? some kitchen skills, to speak up for myself, to try my best to make things happen, to realize when I am not in a situation that is best for me, to respect and love myself, to stand up for myself, to take chances, to not be afraid of changes or the unknown, to find a way to do something with my life that I am passionate about...I really feel I am on that journey now!!